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welcome to my site!
| x | do not interact if this describes you |
|---|---|
| ㅤracistㅤ | including thinking white people can be oppressed for being white |
| ㅤanti-lbgtq+ㅤ | including people who think bisexuals can only be attracted to two genders |
| ㅤsexistㅤ | including thinking men can be oppressed for being men |
| ㅤableistㅤ | including anti self-dx |
| ㅤright wingㅤ | any kind |
| ㅤDIDㅤ | pro-endogenic, anti-system, thinks DID doesn't exist, is going to get pissed off at me about characteristics that i can't control in alters like gender, race, religion, etc, thinks fictional introjects don't exist or are "cringe" (i don't have any but it shows you don't know anything about DID lmao) |
| ㅤmiscㅤ | body policing/fatphobic, pro contact pedophile or "MAP", uses slurs you can't reclaim, jokes about abuse of any kind, any other asshole behavior |
| hi!! somehow you found this. (maybe through me directly linking) congrats lmao you win the prize (which is nothing except getting to know me better) anyway i'm glad that you made it and have decided to start learning a little bit more about me |
| i tried to make this site as comprehensive as possible but i also kinda don't know what people want to know about?? so if you have any other questions or info you think should be added, please contact me thru discord/DMs/wherever else you know me from |
| it's a pretty safe assumption that this site is just perpetually unfinished because i can never think about what i want to write about on things like this |
list of updates
| date | update |
|---|---|
| 2025-08-10 | updated a lot! |
| 2025-07-02 | updated pretty much everything |
all about me!
facts about me
| ㅤnameㅤ | answers to "nate" / depends on alter |
| ㅤㅤageㅤㅤ | 35 (millennial) |
| ㅤbdayㅤ | june 18 |
| ㅤㅤlocationㅤㅤ | dallas metro, texas, US |
| ㅤpronounsㅤ | it/its |
| ㅤㅤsexualityㅤㅤ | bisexual (all genders) |
| raceㅤ | white |
| ㅤrelationshipㅤ | married to elias |
| ㅤpoliticsㅤ | leftist & serious about it |
| mtbiㅤ | ENFJ |
| job | unemployed/trying to decide what to do when i grow up now that i am actually grown up |
| ㅤsystem roleㅤ | depression? humor? |
| strengthsㅤ | natural leader, good listener, empathetic, socialization, careful, charismatic |
| ㅤweaknessesㅤ | easily depressed, low energy, slow working, clumsy, intense, uncompromising |
as of august 2025...
| hyperfixation | lego, self-hosting, learning new tech stuff, mastodon, webdev |
| ㅤspecial interestㅤs | torrents, ASL, keyboards |
| ㅤgame | picross |
| ㅤlearningㅤ | ASL, Japanese (still, forever) |
| listening | i-dle, izna, HANA |
other stuff
| i'm Deaf! i wear hearing aids but they don't work super well, so i learned (and am still learning) ASL. i love attending Deaf events and making Deaf friends here in dallas |
| i'm trans! i've known i was trans ever since i hit puberty, but i only fully transitioned IRL in 2018. i got on T in early 2018 & got top surgery in late 2020. i'm pretty happy with where i'm at now. my gender is kind of just a shrug emoji, but i am DFAB & present as masculine |
| i have DID and it's a pretty big part of my life! at least it affects my life a lot. i wrote more about it on the "warnings" page |
my family
my partner elias
| we met in 2015 and got together romantically in early 2016. we've been living together happily since 2017 :) we got married on october 31, 2024! courthouse wedding but currently planning a ceremony at some point. |
| he is my heart, life, & soul! i love him more than anything in the world. i know it's cheesy, but i don't even have the words to explain how much he means to me. we have been through so many ups & downs and i know we are going to grow old and be grumpy old people together lmao |
pets!!
toni
» female rat terrier
» born 2015 | adopted 2017 (rescue)
» traits: playful, scaredy girl, very licky, loving
» attached to: everyone <3
evil
» male siamese
» born 2018 | adopted 2018 (rescue kitten)
» traits: intelligent, vocal, mischievous, independent
» attached to: elias
ava
» female chiweenie
» born 2013 | adopted 2020 (from MIL)
» traits: sweet but salty, stubborn, spoiled
» attached to: me (so much...)
maru
» male tabby
» born 2022 | adopted 2024 (rescue)
» traits: kinda dumb, playful, even more vocal, very loving
» attached to: everyone <3
interests
special interests
| these are my (autistic) long-term special interests! these are the things that i tend to hyperfocus on and have been very interested in usually since childhood. i do cycle through random special interests here and there if something catches my eye tho, but these are the ones that i am Stuck With Forever (trust me, i've tried to escape) |
| ㅤmarine biology | the ocean and especially octopuses and cephalopods - since i was old enough to know what an octopus was |
| ㅤidolsㅤ | especially hello!project (since 2002) but basically all idols except 48g |
| ㅤjapanㅤ | culture, language, everything (since 2003 or so) |
| ㅤpinkㅤ | pink is a literal lifestyle for me, i don't think anyone has ever been as attached to a color as i am to pink |
hyperfixations
| here are the things that i tend to hyperfocus on! (ADHD). these are usually things i've been hyperfocused on for years. not as hardcore as special interests for better or worse. in no particular order. |
| bricks | lego, off brand, whatever i can get my hands on |
| ㅤminimalismㅤ | especially digital minimalism |
| ㅤtechnologyㅤ | audio hardware and software/production, keyboards/typing, web development, cell phones, privacy & self-hosting |
| ㅤpiratingㅤ | yeah if you want to find something i can probably find it. i'm also big into private trackers and have a seedbox. |
| digital preservation | kind of similar to the above, archiving media is important to me |
| ㅤjapanese & translationㅤ | i am N3 for "generating" (speaking, writing, EN to JP translation), N2 for "consuming" (listening, reading, JP to EN translation) |
| ㅤaslㅤ | so i can actually communicate with other people |
| organization | just give me a gift card to the container store and we're fine |
regular hobbies
| regular old hobbies. i usually cycle through these. in no particular order... def not a comprehensive list bc that would be impossible, i have too many hobbies |
| ㅤvidyaㅤ | binding of isaac, simulation games, picross, the walking dead game, horror games, speedrunning, rhythm games, clickers, shitty mobile games |
| gamesㅤ | sudoku, crosswords, jigsaw puzzles |
| ㅤmusicㅤ | check out my fave songs playlist on spotify |
| ㅤarts & craftsㅤ | cross-stitching, latchhook, journaling (especially MAMBI), stickers, calligraphy, writing utensils, diamond dot painting, currently learning to crochet |
| ㅤcreativityㅤ | singing, writing, playing bass, making music, drawing, web design |
| ㅤtechnologyㅤ | i'm interested in all other tech along with what's listed under hyperfixations, web development, linux, subtitling/transcription |
| ㅤyoutubeㅤ | usually commentary YTers like kurtis conner but i also like markiplier |
| ㅤaesthetics | pink/girly/kawaii, retrowave, guro kawaii |
| ㅤmiscㅤ | coffee, going out to eat, lolita fashion |
oshis
g-idle - yuqi
biyo - okamura minami (kami)
ocha - yonemura kirara
izna - jungeun
mm - sakurai rio
golden - kago ai
HANA - yuri
anju - matsumoto wakana
platinum - kusumi koharu
iss:ue - nano
j=j - kudo yume
colorful - iikubo haruna
here are some warnings
health bullshit
| ㅤDIDㅤ | all of my alters pretend to be me. if you validate them & bother to ask who is fronting, you can speedrun to bff level |
| ㅤmemoryㅤ | DID comes with amnesia. i often will not remember what you told me unless you tell me multiple times. i'm not trying to be offensive, it just is what it is. pls tell me if i already told you something/am telling you a story again tho |
| ㅤADHDㅤ | medicated but i may accidentally ignore you or fuck up the flow of conversations or drop projects easily (working on changing up meds) |
| ㅤdepressionㅤ | usually pretty bad. i do my best to stay medicated & am constantly fighting w/it but it will give me low energy & low spoons |
| ㅤautismㅤ | this probably won't affect you much bc i've found ways around it but i do tend to blah blah about random bs |
trauma and triggers
| ㅤPSTDㅤ | i have childhood trauma related to the following and probably won't be super happy if you decide to talk about it: CSA, physical abuse, emotional abuse, (former) substance abuse, eating disorders, probably more i'm not remembering |
| ㅤfamilyㅤ | the only family i talk to is my brother (my only sibling) & my father |
| ㅤetc | i am 100% forgetting a ton of shit just because i have an awful memory (by design ig with dissociation) so i'll maybe have some other alter come in and fill this in |
other bullshit
diagnosed
| ㅤsleepㅤ | i hardly ever sleep & when i do it's not really productive bc i get night terrors and sleep paralysis from trauma. so i'm probably grumpy most of the time |
| ㅤhearingㅤ | i have severe hearing loss and am Deaf. i wear hearing aids to help |
| ㅤeating | i have a (mostly latent/gone) restrictive eating disorder. i try not to talk about it but sometimes it ends up happening anyway |
| ㅤOCDㅤ | lots of stupid rituals and obsessive thinking |
| ㅤmiscㅤ | agoraphobia |
suspected
| physical | tons of sleep disorders |
| ㅤmentalㅤ | dyslexia |
just some random memes i like :)
